Believe In Life ~ Part Four

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Title: Believe In Life …
Story Type: AU
Word Count: 4069
Rating: R, Porn…
Warnings: Passion and Lust…
Banner: tv_fan_2008 
Beta Queen: bigj52 

Summary: Till Death Do Us Part …

Disclaimer: All publicly recognizable characters, settings, plot, etc. are property of their respective owners, including, but not limited to Russell T. Davies, Cowlip, and Showtime. The author of this story is in no way associated with the owners, creators, or producers of any media franchise. No copyright infringement is intended…

Believe In Life…    ♥♥♥

Part Four ~ Finding Our Way…

Brian’s POV

Brian talked with Cynthia for a few minutes, telling her he’d be in after lunch and to arrange an impromptu staff meeting for when he arrives. Once everyone is settled in the conference room, all looking a little nervous, Brian enters and moves to the head of the table. He asks Ted what the current profit margin was for last quarter. He looks flustered as he shuffles some papers and says; “We’re up for the quarter, twenty three percent over last quarter. We were also up for the year, one hundred and seventeen percent over the prior year, boss.”

Brian smiles and says; “Well then, I guess you all have been busy little bees. I’m very proud of all of you. I know I can sometimes be difficult to work with, but I want you all to know that I really do appreciate your dedication and hard work.

That’s why I’ve decided to give everyone a week’s paid vacation taken at the time of your choosing and Ted will see that everyone receives a one-time bonus in your next paychecks. Since its Valentine’s Day and it’s almost two, why don’t you all finish up what you’re working on and enjoy the weekend?”

It’s a little after three as I start to put the current contracts, story boards and financial reports into my briefcase. Cynthia is complaining about having to reschedule or fill in for me with my meetings for the next week. I tell her, “Maybe it’s time to bring on a couple of new associates; after all, we are growing and I can’t continue to do everything myself.” Cynthia just smiles and says: “I’ll get right on that, boss!”

I check my email before leaving; there’s one from Justin, “♥U” I smile and head out of the office. I’ve just stepped out of the building as the car service arrives, pulling up in front and Justin steps out. I’m still amazed that he’s actually here; I pull Justin into me and kiss him, holding him close. It’s cold and windy -the temperature is close to zero but neither of us seems to notice, unaware of the employees around us who are leaving early.

Ted and Cynthia come out a few minutes later, noticing the limousine from Brian’s service as Justin and Brian break for air; Justin shakes his head and says; “No, no, no! No fucking way are you bringing your briefcase on our honeymoon.” Brian tries to speak but Justin puts his finger to his lips and says; “This is not negotiable” as he takes it and hands it to Ted.

“Justin, there are things that I need to go over before I come back, I…”

“NO…” Justin flashes Ted a big smile and asks if he can take it by the loft so Brian can have it when they get back. Ted smiles and says; “Sure thing, boss.” As he looks between the two of them he says, “Have a great honeymoon.”

Brian glares and says; “Not a single word to anyone… Or I’ll have your balls surgically removed and I know little about that, remember…?” Then Brian wishes everyone a good night and tells them to drive safely due to the poor road conditions.

Brian leans forward and instructs Rick, his driver to take them to the airport and that they don’t want to be disturbed as he raises the divider between the seats. Justin’s grin grows wide as Brian attacks him again, pushing him down on the seat, running kisses around his jaw line, nibbling just under his left ear and driving Justin insane. They both seem a little giddy; they can’t believe that they’re really doing it and in a way that is best for Brian. He’s never been big on displays of affection, so wanting a very brief and private ceremony is totally understandable.

Brian’s not really sure how Justin got all this planned in just a couple of hours but Justin’s reassured Brian that they’ll have a first-class plane ride, a very, very private cabin in the woods near a ski lodge with great slopes for skiing and snowboarding and several fine dining restaurants - although Justin plans on doing most of the cooking and they have the cabin for ten days. Brian rolls his eyes and says; “Justin, I can’t take that much time off and you know it.”

“No, Brian, what I know about is that after you left for work today Dr. Freeman called, wanting to know how you were handling your anxiety attacks. He said he never saw you looking as scared as when you were in the emergency room Tuesday night telling him you were having a heart attack, refusing to let him call me.”

Brian pulls his lip into his mouth like a little kid that’s been caught and shrugs his shoulders, whispering; “I over-reacted, it was nothing.”

Justin raises his eyebrows.

“Dr. Freeman didn’t seem to think so; he says you’ve lost over twenty pounds in the last month; that you don’t sleep, you don’t eat and you work 12-14 hours a day. That at this rate you’re headed straight towards a stroke or a heart attack.”

Justin smiles and says; “But he has a cure; you simply have to reduce your hours at work and by reduce, he means working less than 40 hours a week, start eating properly, live with your husband, that’s my favorite and start seeing a therapist.”

“That’s all, Sunshine?”

Justin smiles and decides to let Brian off the hook for now as he leans over and kisses him tenderly. Then he sits up and says; “Oh, I almost forgot. You have to take these blood pressure pills Dr Freeman prescribed that I picked up at the pharmacy.”

Brian relaxes into Justin’s arms, not sure if he should he angry or relieved that Justin talked with his doctor. At least this way he doesn’t have to try and explain that part of it all. He knows that if Justin stays he’ll see his nightmares up close and personal but again, he’s not sure if he should be scared or relieved. Justin can feel the tension Brian’s carrying so he tells him to get some sleep and to relax as he rubs his shoulders and neck. It will be a good hour or more to get to the airport in this traffic and snow.

When they arrive at the airport Justin instructs the driver to go to Hangar, #147 where a private luxury jet is waiting to take them to the gay-friendly ski town of Stowe, Vermont. He explains that Maddie has friends who have a cabin there that she uses and has arranged for them to stay there for their honeymoon, although she can’t understand why they’re not spending it on a tropical beach. Justin grins up at Brian and says; “Maybe next year?”

Brian pulls him close as they settle into the lush accommodation, totally impressed with the private plane, saying; “You must have real connections, Sunshine.” Once they’re in flight Justin gets up and pours Brian a couple of fingers of Jim Beam in a crystal glass and gets a bottle of water for himself. He hands the glass to Brian as he slides down on his knees, running his hands down the front of Brian’s shirt and around the waistband of his suit pants. His eyes lock with Brian’s while his hands slowly undo his belt and then his zipper. He can’t help lower his mouth to run his teeth gently down his thick cock through the black cotton briefs.

Brian’s not sure what excites him more - Justin’s teeth grazing his sensitive skin or just feeling his breath on his dick through the underwear. Either one of these things would have made him cum without any other stimulation twenty-four hours ago; he’s missed him so much. And now they are about to take their vows and he isn’t the least bit frightened and it doesn’t seem that Justin is either. Yes, this is what he needs and he’s finally accepting the fact that it’s okay to need, to need Justin, to need to be married, connected, committed.

I’m still staring into Justin’s eyes as I’m released from my moist bondage and quickly made into Justin’s new favorite suck toy. He’s running his tongue gently around and around the ridge of my cock. Then he clasps his lips around my crown and gently works his lips up and down while sucking me and stroking my shaft with both his hands, increasing his rhythm and driving me crazy. The more excited I get the more intense and sparkly his eyes get. He knows I’m close as I start to moan Jus, Jus, Jus… He tells me I chant his name when I cum, but I think he just hears it in his mind…

Oh God, it’s been so long since he’s been on his knees in front of me and his beautiful bobbing head, flipping his white-blond hair back and forth is the sexiest thing I’ve ever seen or felt. I reach down and grasp his hair. He reaches back and cups my balls, gently rotating them, slick with his saliva and my pre-cum. Oh fuck, Justin! I shoot my warm salty cum down his throat crying; Oh Jus, Jus, Jus, JUSTIN!!! He just smiles up at me, satisfied with his performance. Brat!

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Justin’s POV

 

We were asking about renting an SUV when we were told that our transportation was all taken care of and that they should be here any minute. Just then a black Hummer pulls up to the hangar and Maddie gets out. She comes running towards me with open arms, ready to hug me. She stops just in front of Brian and looks him up and down, running her hand across her chin, then smiles and says; “Yeah, I’d fuck him.”

She grabs me, hugs and kisses me, congratulating us on our wedding; she keeps looking at Brian, smiling and then tells us how great it is to finally meet him. But there’s more. I just can’t figure it out yet but it’s in her eyes. Maddie smiles at Brian, wanting to pull him into her. It’s all she can do to keep her tears at bay. She can’t believe it! Is it really true. Is it her Brian? Is he finally coming home to her? Will he even remember her? He was so young when the courts returned him to his family. It can’t be her Brian Kinney; he lived in Queens and this Brian Kinney is from Pittsburgh… Now she cringes, thinking about her “I’d fuck him” comment…

We load up our luggage then we jump in the truck and drive to the cabin. She thanks us for letting her arrange our wedding and, of course, we thank her for arranging our wedding. I called her after Brian went to work and once she heard that I wanted to be married in Vermont she insisted that I let her handle it, saying she had connections and apparently, she does.

Brian’s POV

The views are breathtaking and the cabin is a modern A-frame with lots of windows with perfect light for Justin to paint and I can see that he brought a suitcase full of artist equipment and canvases. I’m glad. I want him to feel inspired again and ready to paint. In some ways this place is very much like the loft - huge open spaces with rooms that flow into one another and a huge bedroom upstairs, complete with sitting room. Yeah, this is just what we both need.

 

Justin’s POV

The panoramic view is just spectacular, almost as stunning as this man I’m about to marry. I look around and see that there is a present on the mantel over the fireplace. It’s a plant still wrapped in cellophane from the florist. I look at her and frown, saying; “Haven’t you done enough?”

She smiles at me and says; “Well, every bride must have a bouquet.”

I stick my tongue out at her, “I’m not a bride.”

She snickers and says, “That’s not a bouquet.” 

I open the wrapping paper and take out the plant - it’s a golden gardenia and I can’t help the tears that well up in my eyes. I can’t believe she remembered that - we were really drunk. She comes over and puts her arms around me and wipes away my tears, saying; “Let’s not ruin your mascara…” Now I’m laughing. God I love this woman! I sure hope Brian and her become close. I set the golden gardenia back down on the mantel between the two large candles.

 

Brian comes over and joins me, admiring the fragrant flower. He runs his hand through my slightly too long blond hair and around my chin. We lean in and smell the gardenia’s intoxicating scent, and then he kisses me tenderly and whispers, “All mine, forever…” This may be one of the most romantic things Brian has ever done and I think I might start crying again. He pulls me into him, kissing my hairline, as we take in this incredible landscape before us.

She asks if we want to get ready, take a shower or smoke a joint or whatever. I chuckle and Brian decides that getting a little loose might be just the thing he needs and maybe it will help break the ice more with Maddie. He asks what time we’re supposed to be ready. She smiles and simply says; “It’s your show, sweetheart. You call the shots.” They both reach in their pocket, taking out a joint and start laughing again. I open a bottle of champagne and pour us all a glass. We relax and chat about nothing. She tells us that she’s stocked the fridge and kitchen cupboards and left us a case of champagne, chardonnay/pinot grigio and another case of merlot/pinot noir. She also tells us who to call to have groceries delivered, that there’s a jeep in the garage for our use. She gives us the keys for everything and says that, if we need anything she’s staying in town with friends for a few days to ski and escape.

There’s a knock at the door and Maddie says; “Oh, let me get that.” She returns, saying, “I believe you already know Father Thom and this is his boyfriend, Todd. “Yes, we know Father Thom and we also know Todd - small world.” I can’t believe that she flew Father Thom up here, but I did tell her he was the only priest that Brian seemed to trust. Brian told me that he talked with Father Thom several times after his really bad dreams that shook him deeply. I was really glad that he reached out to someone he could trust, I just wish it was me.

Maddie tells me that Todd is a professional chef and that the two of them will be preparing our wedding dinner. Now, of course, I can’t help wondering what she has planned for us. She’s an incredible cook. It’s actually fun to see Todd outside of the backroom and he and Thom make a cute couple. They’re staying at the ski resort for Valentine’s Day weekend; they say that the slopes are great, they’ve skied here before. I wonder how much skiing we’ll actually get done, but it’s more the idea that we can if we really want to, or we can just relax and be together.

There’s another knock on the door and it’s Matthew, the local mayor and our next door neighbor; he looks to be in his early forties with a long blond ponytail. He brought over our marriage license and joked about how Stowe used to be just a place that all the old hippies came to ski and do artwork. Now twenty five years later with gay marriage legal in Vermont, tourism was booming these days. He said to stop by any time and meet his husband, Joel. I liked him straight away. He seemed very down to earth and friendly.

Brian and I excuse ourselves and go up to go to the bedroom to get ready for our nuptials. He pulls me close, kissing my forehead, whispering how this feels so right to him and how happy he is that were finally about to take our vows. That once he asked me to marry him and then it didn’t happen, he felt so disconnected and abandoned after I was gone. I hold him tight and tell him I’m not going anywhere, anymore, without him; that we were just going to have to figure something out; that I have a vague plan formulating in my head. He arches his eyebrows but I say; “Not today, but this week we’ll figure it all out.”

He smirks and asks if I want to take a shower. I smile and say; “Only a shower. I want the next time you fuck me to be as my husband and raw.” Now we’re both grinning like fools. I don’t think either one of us can believe the other one didn’t even look at anyone else the whole time we were apart. Dr. Freeman said our blood work from Christmas time was just fine. I think I’m getting giddy… Just being held in his arms knowing that were about to commit to one another is creating this amazingly calming effect on me…like the world is finally spinning on its right axis and I’ll always be safe with him.

We’ve stripped each other out of our clothes and we can’t help touching and kissing as we lay down on this bed and make out like teenagers, rutting and caressing one another. We’re getting really worked up and we can’t help taking each other’s engorged dicks into our mouths, 69ing as we suck each other with abandon. Just feeling Brian’s warm lips sucking me off, sliding inside his slick mouth is making me undone “Oh God, Oh Fuck, Oh Yes…” My body is humming as I feel those warm and fuzzy sensations start to build. He reaches back and slides a wet finger into my ass, circling and tickling me, caressing my prostate.

I can barely focus on his cock that is bobbing through my fist and into my mouth as I suck him. I’m totally lost in all the sensations as I shoot, leaning back and letting my head fall over the edge of the bed, allowing Brian easy access to simply fuck the shit out of my throat while I cum down his. That’s when I hear him chanting again; “Jus, Jus, Jus… Oh fuck, Justin!!!” Yeah, it’s good to be home, back in his arms again; home will always be wherever he is. Brian chuckles and says; “Sunshine, you have cum in your hair again…”

Justin smiles his big bright smile and says; “That’s my favorite kind of problem.” They slowly make their way to the bathroom and enjoy their hot steamy shower, holding each other close, cleaning each other off.

 

We decided to get married in the suits we already brought although they’re a little big on us; I guess it has been a rough month on both of us and we’ve lost weight. I have to admit we look hot, all decked out in our fancy designer suits. Well, Brian always looks great but this is my first designer suit tailored just for me….I almost look my age. He comes up behind me and whispers in my ear how beautiful I am; how much he loves me. He turns me around in his arms and he ties my tie in a perfect knot, running his hands through my still-damp hair and asks if I’m ready. I smile and tell him that I’ve been ready for this moment since the first morning I woke up with him. He snickers and says; “I can’t believe I was juggling, I’m really bad at it.”

“I know.” I reply.

We make our way downstairs and look out of the huge windows in the main room - it’s just beautiful. Maddie’s set up a granite topped library table as an altar for us to stand in front of. It faces out towards the vast horizon as the sun just starts to set. The only other light in the room is the fireplace and candles. Soon the light of the moon will start to reflect off the snow on the mountain tops, leaving everything sparkling.

Father Thom smiles and asks if we’re ready. He says that he wrote a little something for the two of us and asks if we have written any vows of our own. Brian nods then takes Justin’s hand and walks him towards the makeshift altar, never taking his eyes off him, grinning like a fool. Justin’s eyes are so intense and sparkling Brian is getting lost in them. Todd softly plays a piece of classical music on the piano while Maddie stands next to him.

Father Thom starts with: “Love happens when you least expect it; you may not think you want it or need it.”

“But never take love for granted; I believe that God knows exactly what he’s doing when he brings two people together.”

“Love is not to be taken lightly, for it is a delicate balance of give and take that makes a marriage work.”

“Love is not to be taken for granted, for then the heart grows lonely.”

“Love needs to be merciful, forgiving, and understanding for it is not always easy.”

“Love needs to be nurtured to thrive and be successful.”

“Love is the greatest gift you will ever receive, don’t forsake it.”

“Love is what has brought the two of you here today, and love is what will continue to grow in your hearts as you build your life together.”

 Father Thom asks if they would like to say the vows they’ve written.

Justin smiles as Brian takes the golden ring from Maddie and slides it onto Justin’s left hand. Then Maddie hands Brain a square diamond stud earring and Brian leans down and puts it in Justin’s left ear.

Justin sighs. “Brian, I can’t believe you bought us diamonds.”

“Justin, you may say your vows…”

“Brian, I knew from the moment that I met you that I would spend my life with you. At times it was difficult and I wasn’t sure you would let me in.”

“I love you with all my heart and soul; I want to be the last thing you see at night and the first thing you see in the morning.”

“My life is meaningless without you to share it with me. I promise to always stand by you and love you until the end of time.”

Justin looks up; Brian can’t help pulling his lips into his mouth and smiling. Justin runs his hands through Brian’s hair and down his jaw; Brian leans in and kisses his hand. Justin then takes the ring from Maddie and slides it onto Brian’s left hand. Then Maddie hands Justin a square diamond stud earring and Brian leans down and Justin puts it in his left ear.

“Brian, you may now say your vows…”

His eyes are watering and his voice cracks a little…

“Justin, I knew from the moment that I met you that I loved you. At times I was difficult and I wasn’t sure I could let you in.”

“I love you with all my heart and soul; I want to be the last thing you see at night and the first thing you see in the morning.”

“My life is meaningless without you to share it with me. I promise to always stand by you and love you until the end of time.”

Brian doesn’t wait for any formal announcement that they are officially married; he reaches over and pulls Justin to him, giving him the most passionate and tender kiss they’ve ever had. He feels safe, like his life is really going to be alright, like he can finally breathe. Justin’s in heaven as Brian holds him while they watch the bright red ball of the sun descend into the mountains, leaving the most beautiful violet purples, golden oranges and deep blues melting into the skyline. Brian whispers; “All mine, forever…”

TBC…