The Inter-sanctum of the Great God Kinney

Summary: 307ish - What do you do when none of your vices seem to work anymore… It seems that the only thing I crave, is the one thing that’s no longer mine…

Disclaimer: My World - My Mistakes (I own nothing)

Justin your hands… there bleeding…

I want someone that only wants to be with me…

You always forgave Brian…

I never forgave Brian, I didn’t have too… he never promised me anything… you did…

Justin please… I need you…

You never needed anything but your music…

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I’m such a fool… I can’t really blame Daphne about the “uptight snooty little faggot” comment or the “judgmental artsy arrogant prick” they both seem pretty accurate in retrospect now…

I was just kidding myself, falling for all his pretty words, when he didn’t mean any of them… I can see now that he manipulated me into leaving Brian… just when he was trying so hard…

Bated me at every turn, he saw what I thought I was missing, and made me think that’s what was important; roses, fancy picnics, chocolates, violin music, and pretty decorations of love… and a cheap ring, it was all so superficial…

We hear your leavin’
That’s ok…
I thought our little wild time
Had just begun…

I guess you kind of
Scared yourself
You turn and run
But if you have a change of heart…

Summary: 307ish - What do you do when none of your vices seem to work anymore… It seems that the only thing I crave, is the one thing that’s no longer mine…

Disclaimer: My World - My Mistakes (I own nothing)


Chapter 1 – I hear Voices…

My names… it doesn’t matter…

Is this what you had in mind… its fine…

That will be 300 up front… the bedroom that way…

Turn over…

Turn over…

Turn over… 

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 Fuck… I’m going to be late for my meeting…

 I’m standing in the shower, and can’t help reaching for his shampoo; I just stand there suds dripping off my hands… I bring my hands up to smell it… I always loved the way he smelled…

I’m lost in my daydreams, can’t concentrate at work, have to get practically comatose to sleep, and can’t seem to get hard for anything that isn’t a fair haired twink…