MM.Com - 1

[7wildwaysup]

Title: marriagematerial.com
Story Type: AU
Word Count: 2405
Rating: NC17
Warnings: Angst and Passion…

Summary: post 507  -  Justin is living at his studio and dating… Brian is finally going to Ibiza… Daphne’s caught in the middle…

Disclaimer: All publicly recognizable charters, settings, plot, etc. are property of their respective owners, including, but not limited to Russell T. Davies, Cowlip, and Showtime. The author of this story is in no way associated with the owners, creators, or producers of any media franchise. No copyright infringement is intended…

Chapter 1 – You’re Supposed To Be My Best Friend…

Brian’s POV

Ted’s cruising websites looking for a husband; so I tell him Justin’s looking for husband. He learns forward in his chair and starts reading one of the profiles; this is Kevin he likes to jog, play tennis, read sci-fi novels and cuddle after a long day… Ted casually pushes some file folders on top of several printouts of potential dates. I could swear one of them looked just like Justin. My heart skips a beat… What the fuck is this…

So I tell him I expect the quarterly reports on my desk in the morning and leave, still contemplating what I saw… my mind must be playing tricks on me. I decide to just give marriagematerial.com a little look.

Um hum…

Fuck Me...

 

 

Name: Justin Taylor
Age: 23
Education: Pittsburgh Institute of Fine Arts
Occupation: Student - Artist

Interests: Justin enjoys dancing, skiing, cooking, reading and quite evenings at home cuddling after a long day…

Desires: Justin is interested in finding a life partner who will appreciate him, and doesn’t have a hard time showing his feeling. He's looking for a long term, permanent relationship that leads to marriage with the possibility of raising children… Others need not apply…

Well Fuck Me all to Hell…

Not only does Justin have a Profile… his inbox is full…

Brian’s not sure if he should be angry or heart broken… how could his boy be turning into a stepford fag… how did things get so fucked up… he’s only been gone a few weeks… at this rate he’ll be married by Christmas… Brian wasn’t even conscious of lifting his new designer lamp and smashing it into his designer coffee table shattering both to smithereens…

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Brian's dining with a new client, and in the middle of his finalizing the contract He notices Justin sitting with an older man in a dark corner of the restaurant. They look to be talking intensely oblivious to others around them; Brian can’t seem to look away for very long. He doesn’t even remember completing his business deal he’s just standing in the lobby paying his bill and feeling rage…

Yes Rage… he wants to rip this guy’s cock off and feed it to him. He can’t stop thinking about Justin lying in bed with this guy making all those beautiful little squeals and moans that Brian still wants to believe that he only makes for him… he leaves the restaurant and decides to just walk in crisp evening air, letting his thoughts drift… How did I get here?

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Justin’s POV

Daph, he’s not that old and he’s really nice and kind, and he treats me like I’m the most important thing in his life… how can this be a bad thing? Besides it was your idea that I register with marriagematerial.com. So why are you acting like I’m cheating on Brian? Were through… over… done…

I mean sure, Brian was hot and great in bed… but… both those thing will fade with time, and then where will I be… with someone that’s rude, snarky and doesn’t even want to spend time with me…

She just shakes her head, and says Um hum… how he in bed?

Daph… sex isn’t everything…

That bad…

He’s not Brian ok… but I don’t have to worry about coming home and finding him in bed with someone… he doesn’t make me feel like I’m nothing… like a cheap fuck…

Is that how Brian really made you feel? Like a cheap fuck… like nothing…

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Justin’s walking towards the RedCape to drop off the boards for the new copy of rage the “Marriage Issue” and he can’t stop thinking about Daphne’s words… “Is that how Brian really made you feel? Like a cheap fuck… like nothing…” and there he is standing in front of the counter talking to Michael… my heart skips a beat and I hesitate and decide not to go inside. I just… I just can’t see him…

My mind is reeling… I’ve gone out with a lot of guys these last few weeks. It almost seemed like speed dating I went out on 4 or 5 dates a week, most of them first dates, a couple of them second dates and then there’s Stuart we’ve gone out a half a dozen times, and last night he asked me to marry him… I’m still in shock and haven’t told anyone…

He’s really nice, he’s a doctor, a pediatrician and he loves kids… He’s a few years older than Brian and he’s stable, owns his own home and he says he loves me… so why do I feel so lost… Isn’t this what I said I wanted… My mom thinks he’s great; even my dad called and asked us to have dinner with him. So why do I feel like some kind of s Stepford fag… Like I’m selling out? I should be happy, excited… but I just feel nothing…

I haven’t even told Daphne yet and she seems to already be pulling back, like she did when I was with Ethan. She never held back her feeling about how much she thought he was sleazy and slimy, she never had any respect for him. She said that if he was a real man he wouldn’t come between me and Brian like that. He would have waited until I decided what I wanted and ended it with Brian first. So how can she see Stuart the same way? I mean, I did, I ended it with Brian. But she said she doesn’t think so…

I’m sitting in Starbuck’s drinking a cappuccino and thinking about how much I miss his touch…  Stuart, he’s a great guy… there’s just no sexual chemistry… but isn’t that what happen after marriage anyways… I can hear Brian saying it’s boring… unsatisfying… Is that what I have to look forward to; for the rest of my life… I’m so confused… I miss him… I wonder if he misses me. Is it possible to make the biggest mistake of my entire life… twice? Won’t it just be more of the same if I go back?

My phone rings and it’s my mom she sounds so happy, she says why didn’t you tell me honey? Then she tells me Stuart called her and told her we were getting married… I try and tell her I never answered him but she can’t hear me… just like Stuart didn’t hear me last night… I’m confused and now I’m feeling pressured to marry him. She tells me Stuart has made dinner reservations at the Bella Vista and invited her and Tucker as well as my dad and his new wife Suzy. I’m wondering if he’s planning on inviting me?

I feel like running… I feel like I’m drowning… I can’t breathe… Thing are moving way to fast…

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Brian’s POV

I’m standing in front of the counter of the Red Cape and Michael tells me that Justin is engaged to some fancy doctor… his mom was at the diner this morning all excited and taking with Debbie about it… seems he’s just perfect for him… he’s everything I’m not… everything I’ll never be… everything Justin wants… I smile and tell Michael that that’s just what he deserves; he deserves to be happy… I can’t breathe I’ve got to get out of there…
I walk in the bitter cold for blocks and end up at the Starbucks.

I didn’t see him when I came in, he looks so beautiful… but he doesn’t look very happy. I hesitate but then decide that I might as well get this over with now, maybe this way I won’t have to see him again… ever… I can’t do this anymore. So I approach his table and congratulate him on his engagement, he looks surprised I guess he didn’t think I’d find out so soon. Our eyes linger a little too long before I break my glance and tell him I hope he finds what he’s looking for, and then I leave.

I was so afraid that my voice would break before I spit it out or that he’d see the tears welling up in my eyes. I’ll be dammed if I’m going to cry for him, again, anymore, he’s gone, gone for good now. He’s better off…

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Justin’s POV

My phones ringing again I assume its Stuart, I answer without looking; Good Morning Dr. Mathews…

Hey Justin… It’s Conner.

Conner hey, hi how are you…

I just wanted to congratulate you… Michael told Brett that you’re getting married… I guess you finally got your man…

Well…

So I guess he wasn’t too pissed when I sent him away… he must be a pretty great guy…

What do you mean? Sent him away?

You know when Brett extended the work on rage a few extra months…

Yeah… but I still don’t understand…

Well when I left that day, you were just jumping into the shower… well I was leaving and he was at the door. Fuck he’s hot… anyways I guess I was being a little cunty; so I said come on in… he’s still all nice and wet and juicy… I guess I was a little jealous… I knew how much you loved him… I though he was in advertising though, not a doctor?

Justin’s just really quite… and finally says I have to go…

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He’s pounding on Daphne’s door all most in tears…

She opens and says oh my god what happened? What did Brian do this time?

Apparently he did come to visit me in California…

Yeah… I know… I drove him to the airport…

What the fuck are you talking about?

He really missed you… he was just about going insane missing you, so I convinced him to go and surprise you…

Why didn’t you ever tell me this?

He asked me not too, besides it’s not such a good memory for him…

You’re supposed to be my best friend…

Yeah well you were fucking some movie star… and he said he just couldn’t ask you then…

Ask me… Ask me what?

Let’s not go there now, ok…

Just fucking tell me; what the fuck are you talking about…

I don’t feel comfortable with this…

TELL ME…

He was going to…

What... What?

He was going to ask you to marry him… I even helped him design your rings… oh Justin I promised I would never tell you… He’s going to kill me…

Their both just sitting on the floor crying…

Well you don’t have to worry about all his bullshit now… I mean your getting married to Stuart. Right?

No… Why would you think that?

He asked you didn’t he?

Yes, but I never answered him… How do you know about that?

Oh… Ah… Well… He just left… He’s taking it pretty hard… Don’t be mad at him Justin… he’s… he’s…

What? He’s what?

He thinks its better this way… he wants you to have a good life… a great life…

How can I without him… what is it? There’s something else isn’t there? What is it? TELL ME…

He’s sick…

Sick? What do you mean sick? Sick, sick?

He found out when I he went back for his test results… he didn’t have an  STD anymore… but...

Justin shakes his head and says what? What is it? Cancer?

She can’t even look at him now… he doesn’t want you to know… he’s leaving…

Leaving? You mean, going to Johns Hopkins?

No… He put everything in your name… He’s not coming back… He’s not having surgery…

YOU’RE SUPOSSED TO BE MY BEST FRIEND… HOW COULD YOU NOT TELL ME…

He just wants you to be happy… and he doesn’t feel like he can compete with doctors and movie stars…

HE CAN’T… THEIR NO WHERE NEAR HIS LEAGUE… HE’S WAY BETTER THAN THEM, THAN ANYONE I’VE EVER KNOWN…

I’m sorry Justin… I’m so sorry…

They both just sit on the floor holding each other crying… for god knows how long…

TBC