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Title: I Think You’d Be Making An Even Bigger Mistake…
Story Type: AU
Word Count: 4289
Rating: R, Porn…
Warnings: Angst’s, Passion and Love…
Summary: Brian’s comes to grips with his true feelings; as he opens his heart to Justin again…
Chapter Four – Going Steady; Brian Kinney Does Do Boyfriends…
Well look who decided to grace us with his presence; what can I get for you your majesty…
Deb… Please it’s too early… can I just have a cup of coffee.
What’s wrong Brian? You look like shit, you know you can’t stay up all night partying and continue to remain young and beautiful forever… it will catch up with you…
Deb… Coffee please and not that de-cafe shit…
She pours his coffee and sits down in the booth with him. Now tell me what’s wrong; you look like shit and my guess is that you’ve lost weight. What happened to your natural healthy glow you look all pale and pasty…
Thanks so much for noticing Deb…
Where have you been for the last two weeks, you know between Michael and Sunshine are both so distraught I was thinking I might have to call a group therapy session…
It’s nothing Deb; I was just away on business… just evaluating my options…
Don’t tell me it’s nothing their both on the verge of a nervous breakdown. You know they both need you and depend upon you. They have been at each others throats, each blaming the other for your disappearance. I wish you would talk to them get them to work this out. It’s just wrong that they continue to fight like this…
Everyone is responsible for their own happiness Deb… and its time Mickey started depending upon himself for once or maybe his new beau… but not me Deb… don’t you think its time to cut the umbilical cord?
Brian you’ve always been there for him, why would you walk away now?
Whose walking away I just need some distance I need time for just me; well me and Sunshine anyways…
So when did that happen? I don’t want you hurting him again… he deserves someone that can really love him.
Thanks for reminding me Deb… because that could never be me right? I could never be the one that he loves, and needs…
Listen Asshole… He’s still hurting he doesn’t need you breaking his heart again…
Why the fuck is it that you seem to think he’s the only one to get his heart broken? Do you really think I’m just a cold hearted bastard?
Hey, hey no… No…Brian… I’m sorry please, talk to me…
I love him Deb… I really love him.
Well have you told him?
Yeah… we’re trying to work it out; give it a shot… I know I’ve made a lot of mistakes but I’m really trying this time. I was just hoping to have some support from my so called family.
Brian… I’m so proud of you, we’re all here for you… well I’m sure Michael will have a hard time adjusting; but give him time I’m sure he’ll come around. Hell he should have gotten past this way back in high school. I guess we haven’t done him any favors; we’ve both over-protected him all his life.
But now he has Ben… he seems to be good for him.
Seems to be… but I still don’t like that he’s positive… I want Michael safe; is that too much to ask?
Deb… we don’t get to choose who we fall in love with; or so I’m finding out… Hell I think Michael and I just finally hit puberty… I just hope it doesn’t get ugly; I’m not up for the cat-fights right now…
Then it’s up to you to help Michael adjust; resolve this problem with him and Justin… Rage was a pretty positive thing in Michael’s life; he doesn’t have all that many opportunities available for him. So fix this and help him finally grow-up…
With that Deb gets up to serve the orders that just came up, and Brian can’t help thinking yeah of course I’m suppose to fix everything… somehow its always my fault. He starts to read the Wall Street Journal and catch up on everything in the business world when Ted, Michael and Emmylou slide into the booth. Em can’t help noticing Brian scruffy beard and shaggy hair hitting the edge of his collar; making him look a little like a derelict.
It’s just then that Justin appears and slides in next to Brian while Mickey’s at the counter talking with Carl about Deb’s birthday. When Michael returns he just glares at Sunshine whose completely ignoring him as him and Brian make out. He’s not the only one staring in the diner; it seems this display of affection has caught most everyone’s attention. When they finally break their kiss neither one of them acknowledges that this is anything but the norm…
Em breaks the silence with a comment about how Brian has taken on an almost vampire look considering how pale and thin his skin is looking. Brian jokes that his membership at the tanning salon has expired… Justin says permanently… as he takes the pack of cigarettes out of Brian’s hands and twists the pack until it’s a broken mess in the middle of the table. Brian stares at Justin, but Justin just smiles and says we quit smoking as he bats his very long eyelashes back at Brian… Brian takes a deep breathe and says you keep taking away all my addictions and you’ll be the only one left; Justin grins and says so it’s working…
Ted can’t help asking so what’s up with your job anyways Bri? Did you really get fired? Brian takes a deep breath and says I’ve decided to take a leave of absence; Gardner and I have different ideas for the direction of the firm. Since part of the deal with Vance purchasing Rider Advertising was that I be made partner, plus my annual salary and a guaranteed 10% of the gross profit. I’ve decided to take a year off and do freelance work and travel.
Besides I’ve heard that
Michael takes this opportunity to ask what Brian will do with himself with a year off. Isn’t that excessive; won’t he get bored? Can he really afford to take that kind of time off? Brian says it will be an adventure and he’s sure he won’t be bored as long as he has his Sunshine as his cruise director… Michael takes a different tactic and asks if Brian’s coming to
Justin chuckles and says well you dodged most of those bullets in their; pale, thin, derelict, vampire… Vampire that was my favorite… Brian grabs him saying I want to suck your blood as he leans him up against the jeep sucking on his neck leaving a huge red hickey as he pulls away… Justin whines I have to see my mom this afternoon and now I look like I’ve been making out under the bleachers… It’s your mom Sunshine I’m sure she knows I would never take you under the bleachers; I’m much more of a boxed seat type of sports fan… Justin just smiles he’s grateful for the comic banter; it’s so much better than wondering and worrying about Brian.
He drops Justin off at his mom’s condo and makes his way to Van Guard he needs to go over some of the business proposals and contracts with Gardner and Cynthia.
He going down to talk with Cynthia and is surprised when he see’s that his office is just the way he left it almost four weeks ago now. He looks at Cynthia with his tongue planted firmly in his cheek as he asks what’s this all about? He was sure that
Brian sits behind his big modern desk as Cynthia takes a seat in one of the designer leather side chairs. She smiles up at him and says; well boss I never thought I’d see you taking this kind of time off you’re such a workaholic… Brian says we’ve worked together for a long time now; but it’s not like this is a permanent vacation. He thinks to himself at least I hope not. I’m still going to be in contact on a regular bases advising from afar; as well as doing freelance work on the side.
Which I wanted to talk to you about… I don’t know what’s going to happen over the next year; but I do want you to know that I plan on us working together again. I can’t say that it will be here in the Pitts, but I do plan on scouting out new clients here in
Cynthia just chuckles and says you really need to get over the fear of certain words… I think you’re extremely lucky he decided to give you a second chance… You must know you don’t deserve it… You treated him like shit and if I were him I’d never speak to you again; then I’d kill you and I’d spend all your money… Well it’s a good thing his internship is almost up I wouldn’t want you giving him any ideas… I’m just saying don’t blow it… Cynthia really… by now I would think you would understand if I don’t blow him he’ll end up leaving me… She shakes her head and says there really isn’t any hope for you is there?
But I mean it Boss… Please don’t do anything stupid he really loves you even if you don’t deserve it. So bite you tongue and do and say some of those things you’ve deemed hetro-rituals just to make him happy; you just might be surprised… a little can go a long ways. Besides I’m not convinced you don’t really want those things as much as he does. I have a feeling you’re a total romantic deep down inside; your just too insecure to ever let it show…You think I’m insecure? Oh you are so lucky that I’m taking a leave of absence; because I might have to fire you for that remark.
Cynthia just smiles and helps Brian gather up all the paperwork, contracts and insurance policies. Brian made sure Justin was fully insured on his health and life insurance polices. She walks him to his jeep giving him a big hug and wishing him well. She’s thankful that she had the opportunity to really get to know Justin much better over the last six weeks; and that he confided in her about Brian’s health. She smiles brightly as she watches Brian pull out of the parking lot holding back tears; wondering if she’ll ever see him again.
It’s a beautiful spring day and all the trees are starting to bud and the daffodils and forsythia are in bloom creating spots of bright yellow splashes every now and then. Brian’s driving down the road lost in the spring day waiting for Justin’s call to pick him up; he doesn’t remember pulling into the cemetery or even parking the jeep.
He stands before his fathers grave letting himself feel all those feelings he’s never allowed himself to feel before; at first he’s stunned by his surroundings and how beautiful some place so full of death can be. Staring out looking over the rolling hills of green grass his mind wanders back to his childhood and all the sports he was involved in at school. He started out playing pee wee softball, soccer and football; he was a natural and it was the one thing he had that his father was truly proud of him for.
He played all sports as he grew up, it wasn’t only a way of giving him as safe place away from home but it fulfilled his need to be near lots of men… Looking back he wonders if it was instinctual that he sought out activities that put him in what would become his natural hunting grounds; even as a small boy his longing to be near naked man was intoxicating for him. He chuckles to himself that the one thing that actually made his father proud of him also gave him the opportunity to meet and indulge in his intense need for sexual activity…
He often tells everyone that his first sexual experience was with his coach… and it was; but it was just a different coach that Brian often leads everyone to believe… He was much younger than a teenager and it was so much more than a brief encounter in the shower. The church was also a place he sought refuse from his fathers fist; as well as a place that indulged his sexual fantasies. He finds it completely ironic that the two places his parents held in high esteem were also the very same places that he developed his sexual predator behavior.
He stands there looking down at his father’s grave wanting to hate him; but the only emotion that he can feel is pity. He now see’s that all the fear and anger he felt so often growing up is no longer festering deep within him and he realizes that what Justin once hold him is true… He’s not his father; he loves his son and now that he’s finally being honest with himself he also admits that he loves Justin; always has always will…
Was it fate that brought them together? Was it his fate that he should be inflected with the same disease as his father? His fate to die and always be young and beautiful? For so long that was the only fear he ever let show; the fear to not be young and beautiful forever… He thinks to himself I really I’m a totally conceited and arrogant bastard; I wonder why my friends put up with me all this time. He’s brought out of his internal rant hearing his cell phone ring. He gives one long last look back at Jack and tries to let all his childhood fears die their with his memories of his father.
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He picks up Sunshine and some Thai food and makes his way back to the loft; listening to Justin fill him in on all the details of all the activity concerning the sale of the loft. It’s than that he can see it in Justin’s eyes; he doesn’t want to sell the loft… Brian’s taken back by this revelation; he just assumed that Justin wouldn’t want to keep it, that it had too many bad memories to remind them. He asks why didn’t you say something? Justin looks at him and says I would never question your decisions I trust your judgment and it doesn’t really matter where we live; just so long as were together.
Brian says I only wanted to sell it because I couldn’t be here and not feel your absence in every empty space; it was just a reminder of everything that I lost; that I fucked up… I practically had to be drunk just to sleep I missed you so much; he bites his bottom lip to stop the quivering that is starting. Justin senses his despair and pulls Brian into his embrace holding him tight whispering that he wasn’t the only one to make mistakes; and that he understands how Brian feels about the empty loft. He’s had his own time alone here waiting for the man he loves and the emptiness can be maddening. Then he also says but moreover the loft holds memories that I never want to forget; that I’ll cherish forever and its those memories that break my heart at the thought of never making love to you here again.
Always the romantic Sunshine with that it was decided that they would always keep the loft as a home base; a place that will always be their own, a refuge from the out side world. Brian finds himself thinking about Cynthia’s words of advice and thinks that wasn’t so hard to give him what he wanted. A little expensive but just seeing the relief in his eyes was more than Brian ever expected and enough encouragement for him to consider what else it is that would make his Sunshine truly happy? Justin’s smiling brightly as all the anxiety of selling the loft dissipates and he no longer feels so unsettled about where they belonged.
Brian rubs his bristly whiskers against Justin’s cheek as he starts running kisses from his ear down his shoulder licking and sucking each time he lifts his lips from his skin. He moves lower around to his neck lifting his arms over his head and slipping his polo shirt over his head; letting it fall to the floor behind them. His mouth moves down his spine and his hands wander down the inside of his cargo pants. He gently brushes his fingertips across his boys big plump vein pumping blood into his sleepy cock; bring him to life as he now strains against the fabric of his trousers bubbling his sweet juices onto the khaki denim.
Justin’s moaning and his breathing is hitching as he loose himself in Brian’s touch; he’s barely conscious that he’s staining the front of his pants as his dick is being worked hard in Brian’s strong firm grip. Yes Brian has no problem now feeling his intense sexuality yearning for his teenage nymphomaniac; he lifts him up and carries him to the bed throwing him down with an evil laugh…
Justin’s already lost in his own need and desires for his predator lover as Brian removes his pants and attacks his throbbing shaft ; it’s been along time since he’s felt the urgent need that’s flowing through his body beckoning him to submit to his master. It feels so good being taken by his partner, feeling all the love and need expressed between the two of them. He relived that Brian’s found himself again and his security in his sexuality. Not that he didn’t enjoy a vulnerable Brian opening himself up completely and giving himself to Justin in a way he never expected; but their will always be a part of Justin that needs to be claimed, owned, dominated.
I need that comes from a desire so deep within him; he loves to ride that wave, walk that fine line. Someplace between holding on and completely surrendering himself, as he’s assaulted with the most intense orgasm giving him pleasure that he’s never felt with other lovers. His body is entirely on overload from the sensations Brian is sending through him; and he can’t focus on undoing Brian’s pants, as his hands fumble with all those damn buttons on his Levi’s. Brian pushes his hands away as he unbuttons his blue jeans releasing the beast from within.
He slips his pants down over his narrow hips as Justin grabs his cock and starts kissing and licking his juicy treat, like he’s starving for his masters member with a longing that been denied for an eternity. Brian looks into his Sunshine’s eyes and for the first time he realizes that maybe it really has been a long time since he’s been taken; feeling a good hard prick deep down inside him. His mind flips through all his memories and he can’t find one where Justin’s actually taking it up the ass… expect with him of course.
He can still count on a single hand how many times he’s ever let Justin top him… but the concept that he’s the only one that ever penetrated him is just more than Brian can comprehend. Just the notion that he might truly be his one and only, that’s more than any ego should ever contemplate. Justin belonging to only him makes him feel so incredibly powerful, like he’s taken the word stud to an unfathomable level of sexual infamy… To say he has a big head would be the world’s understatement of the century.
Brian’s smiling like a goofy adolescent boy thinking about the possibility as he pushes Justin down on the bed and climbs up his body while running his tongue from the arch of Justin’s left foot up around his ankle slowing pulling his tick juicy tongue along the inside of his calf detouring around the back of his knee elating giggles of laughter from his boy as he continues up the inside of his thighs; flicking his tongue back and forth as his inches closer and closer to the base of Justin’s big chubby member.
Sunshine lets out a loud groan as he feels Brian’s wet warm tongue working its way along his pulsating vein that runs up his weeping penis… Brian stops about a half inch from Justin’s oozing hole waiting patiently as his pre-cum dribbles down his dick. Justin writhes under Brian as he teases him waiting for his moist droplets to bead up and drip into his awaiting tongue. Justin body is twisting and yearning for touch as Brian holds him firmly pinned to the mattress begging for his touch.
Justin's about to lose his mind as he begs and pleads for Brian’s; tongue, finger cock… hell he’d settle just for Brian’s breath blowing on his skin creating even the slightest sensation… He moans out Brian’s name in the most guttural and wanton voice imaginable shameless begging for his cock… Brian Please… I need you… I need your touch… Oh God I want you… Brian… BRIAN… Fuck me… Oh God Brian Please… Fuck me… He twists and arches his groin up towards him screaming Brian Fuck Me…
Brian chuckles loudly as he leans into his Sunshine and asks if he missed him? He claims his lips before he can answer pulling him up into his arms holding him on his lap rutting his big cock against Justin’s increasing his pressure as they slip and slide against each other creating a sticky mess. Justin leans back grinding himself along Brian dick feeling his length tickling his pucker as he tries to rub himself along his thick ridge. Brian can’t help all the juices percolating from his slit, lubing Justin’s opening as Brian pushes and dips slightly in and out of his blond barley penetrating him and stopping each time as he feels his boy opening and closing as he craves his masters penis…
Their both wanton lost in their desire that it wouldn’t take much for them to throw all restraint out the window. But finally Brian tears open a condom pulling back handing it to Justin telling him to put it on him… Justin hesitates looking into Brian’s eye’s begging to throw all caution to the wind; but he knows better so he finally takes it and slips it on his man. While at the same time he positions himself over his partner’s huge shaft and slips down slowly filling himself until he’s consumed every last millimeter of his suitor’s appendage devouring it as he thrusts himself up and down repeatedly working his own shaft as he bounces and quivers with delight. He’s consumed with his approaching orgasm as it fills him with an intense need and desire.
Brian sense’s his boys looming climax and lays him flat on the bed as he starts to thrust and plunge his cock into his abyss creating a dance of pleasure and yearning with his prostate as they both start to reach sexual elation… Brian’s completely lost in euphoria as Justin finally succumbs to Brian as he tumbles over that beautiful edge of ecstasy…
Their both completely spent feeling their passion as they lay their holding each other as their breathing races and they ride out the last waves of pleasure that ebbs and flows through them. Brian whispers I love you Justin… I didn’t know it could be like this. So if you ever doubt me; please remember this and know I’ve never loved you more in my life…
TBC
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Date: 2010-04-12 01:50 am (UTC)it shouldn't matter where they live. they'll make new memories wherever they are.
when they finally do do it raw, it's going to be beautiful.
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Date: 2010-04-12 02:28 am (UTC)Although it might be just what Michael needs to find himself once he steps out of (he's self inflected)the shadows of Brian...
Allowing yourself to love and be loved has it benefits; going raw is a true commitment...
Later Sweetheart ~ Kathleen
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Date: 2010-04-12 03:40 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-04-12 04:12 am (UTC)Yeah I'd play Cynthia, Lindsay or even Mel... lazying around the set... hum... I think it must be time to write more RPS Stuck Ins...
Later Sweetheart ~ Kathleen
Oh yeah on the pics, I've been playing out on those websites where you can download each episode and click thru the frames one at a time...
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Date: 2010-04-12 04:21 am (UTC)I loved it Kathleen :)
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Date: 2010-04-12 04:26 am (UTC)That makes me smile my big Sunshine smile...
Later Sweetheart ~ Kathleen
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Date: 2010-04-12 11:44 am (UTC)Jesus lady what are you doing to me?
That was so hot & so full of love,,& the last few lines were a delight to read.
Yay for Brian back on top,,it's where he belongs, I love, love this series, thanks so much, made me smile,,hugs Jx
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Date: 2010-04-12 02:14 pm (UTC)Someone has to go back and give our boys the emotions and feelings that Cowlip somehow forgot to film...
Later Sweetheart ~ Kathleen
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Date: 2010-04-12 06:49 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-04-12 07:10 pm (UTC)My muse is definitely back I'm already halfway through the next chapter...
Later Baby ~ Kathleen